It's just ME..

I felt sad today..
and I'm feeling terrible..
cuz I cant seem to find anyone who I can confide into for my emotions..

There's tears in my eyes when I read the notes written by my brother..
my heart ache..but I'm in class..so I held it back..
I felt so useless for being unable to protect my only younger brother when he is vulnerable..
my heart sank when I see how he struggle with reality..

And that is why I must succeed in life..
to provide my mom a better life..
and to grant my bro's wishes, with the dreams he deserved...

I want a change. A change that no matter what big deal happen in the future.
I can always shove it off with my own hand.