emo

那天在别人的欢送派对
我听着听着歌
突然想要掉泪

今天我看了朋友的部落
她过得很好
我很羡慕
看着自己什么都不是
我很疑惑

最近真的好烦
每天都在想自己到底想怎样
朋友在部落各里写到当初他怎么去选择爱她还是一个他爱的人
让我想到自己的情况
对阿
我到底想怎样

我已经不止一次问过自己这个问题
但却一直找不到答案
很伤心

有一封电邮说过
男人哭了，是因为他真的爱了
女人哭了，是因为他真的放弃了
而我一直那么地哭
到底是为什么

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总是在两杯黄酒下肚后
希望自己是个坏女孩
希望放下矜持
抽一根烟
狠狠地抱着一个人
因为我很想念








拥抱的温暖。

Falling in Love

I'm falling in love with this place..
a place with so much fun and laughters..

Friends.is.really.important.in.life.
especially when youre in a society which you dont belong to.

If only there are less hassle and troubles in the restaurant.
I will be much happier.

Bristol.is.really.a.nice.place.
I'm Lovin' It.. :)

19112009

Yesterday I was really unhappy..
When I have to surrender the room with lock which i purposely tidy up before i move in to the new chefs..i am down.
And yesterday I have to surrender another room that i moved in to the person because of the renovation workers threatened to leave the job if they didnt get into move in the house.
for the first time i really wish i can tell them straight into face.go fck your mom!
The reason is.when the boss is here, they dont ask, they dont complaint.
When the boss leave, they said that to us.
And because the other person is so scared of the boss, he made his own arrangement
For what reason, I have to be kicked here and there just because of these fucking idiots?
Can I also threatened not to help out if I dont get a room by myself?!

Actually it's no big deal.
I knew it.
I just want to vent my dissatisfaction over the unfair treatment.

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结果原来昨天不只是我一个人不开心
所以我们几个不开心的人
到对面酒吧喝酒减压去了。
尝试了他们所谓的“深水炸弹”。
还蛮好喝的。
一点也不像酒。
还有PinaCoLada。看港剧时，有个角色每次都点这个喝。
结果昨天我试了。
还真的不错喝。
没有醉。
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Let go

放手？









Maybe i should....

可悲

突然觉得自己好可悲

除了是一个不懂爱的人

我还可悲到没有一个倾诉的对象

总是一再烦着无关紧要的他

虽然他不嫌我烦

我自己也不好意思

情绪低落真的做什么都感觉头头碰壁

好累

真想像某些人一样可以不负责任的向别人发牢骚

不用去理会他人怎么想

有什么感受

不干我的事

只要我自己发泄到就好了

我很自私吗？

说真的，我离自私还远的很呢

学着办吧

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